Goodbye to All This
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Goodbye to All This
“I still love him and I miss him.” Losing the thing you are most sure of and coming out the other side - a story about life, love and loss. A 12-part memoir by Sophie Townsend.
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13 episodes
12. Moving
He’s still here all the time. Yet he’s not. And a diary has more in it than expected.
“I’ll feel his absence every day, like a bruise that’s ten...
11. The shoe
“She hates me going into her room”. A pink, strappy, high-heeled shoe causes a big row. The girls are growing up – fast. And now Sophie is crying over...
10. Appointment
The washing machine breaks. The bills are mounting. Sophie almost electrocutes herself. And just as it couldn’t get any worse, it’s raining and there’...
9. Something new
“You’ll never find anyone if you’re not online.” Sophie is ready to start dating again but finds it’s done differently now. She meets a man who likes...
8. Going under
“Mama, I can’t get to you!” There’s unexpected danger on a holiday, when the family is swept out to sea in Byron Bay, Australia.
A Falling Tree...
7. Port in the storm
“His death is nothing like the worst thing. The worst thing is now.” Sophie is struggling after Russell’s death. Everyone is trying to help, but is sa...
6. The funeral
Love, flashes of anger and remembering funny things. It's the first time Sophie has nothing to do except sit since her husband died. And she looks lik...
5. The crowded goodbye
“He was covered in flowers and looked so peaceful.” The children put them in his hair and all around him. They stroked his head and kissed him.
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4. Crashing waves
“I’m sorry it’s not better news.” A hospital appointment feels like a polite break-up. Sophie and Russell are told nothing more can be done.
A F...
3. Family portrait
“Hold on, we think. Hold on.” A photo and a moment captured, trying to cling on, before it all begins. The cancer treatment starts and everyone wants...
2. The secret
“Of course you’re crying. You’re very, very frightened.” Sophie had started to convince herself that she had overreacted – but she hadn’t. And now nob...
1. A shadow
“He blows a kiss and now I see it – there’s exhaustion in his eyes. How didn’t I notice it before?”
Sophie and Russell never expected anything b...
Prologue
“I don’t dream about him for weeks. And then, there he is, woven into my sleep.”
A story about losing the man you love and going on without him...